Marcus' Going Away Party

Marcus' going away party was a complete success. I couldn't believe the weather was so perfect. About 60 plus friends showed to wish him farewell and good luck. He was to leave on Wednesday at 2:00pm for England. Here are some pictures from the party.

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Marcus Going Away Party

Face Reality

Never face reality unless your reality is just the way you want it to be.

What are you planning?

I had two great excerpts from reading this weekend that I thought I'd share:

"The Universe does not know or care whether the vibration that you're offering is in response to something you are living right now and observing, or in response to something you are imagining. In either case, the Universe accepts it as your point of attraction and matches it."

"Whatever you're thinking about is literally like planning a future event. When you're worrying, you are planning. When you're appreciating you are planning... What are you planning?"

Little about Mr. A - Z

Thought I would share with y'all the most amazing artist to me. His lyrics inspire me, and his sound draws me in every time. He's extremely talented and if you haven't heard him already here's a taste.

TelluTRI - I'm doing my first triathlon!!

Okay, here's something very ironic! My favorite number is 12. Most everyone knows this. The number 12 has oddly been associated with everything good in my life thus far. I was born on May 12, my sister was born on 12-12, I started dating Marcus on Aug 12.... and now... I'm starting training for my first triathlon today. March 12, 2007

I think it's a sign that I'm going to do well. I guess first I need to learn to swim. HA HA --- No, really... no joke! I have no clue how to swim becuase I never tried. And to think I dated an Olympic Gold Medalist for 2+ years that was a swimmer, but I took no lessons. IDIOT! I know.

Anyway, my buddy Josh is incredible. He's a Lifestyle and Fitness Coach. Owns his own business called Pure... just not sure if his website is working right yet. Anyway, I have wanted to start training with him since the day I got a "sample" workout with him and couldn't move for days. I approached him about training and not only am I a client now, but I am going to do a triathlon with him. Something I've always wanted to do!

The gig is called TelluTRI. It's at TelluTRI.com. It's 3/4 mile swim, 43 mile bike, and 5 mile run. It's the highest altitude triathlon in the country, and I don't look forward to getting in 50 degree water... even with a wetsuit.

Any comments or wishes are appreciated... or maybe you've done one and have some great tips!

Shoes!

My friend Derek shared this with me... WAY TO WIERD & FUNNY

Dreaming about Jesus

Had this dream yesterday and woke up laughing my ass off.

So the dream starts off with me at some sort of religious gathering, like Easter or something. I'm there with my family and even helping out with the services. (Which is ironic considering I get wheezy anytime I come near a church!)

Then somehow, out of the hundred plus people there, I AM THE ONE THAT GETS CHOSEN to go bury Jesus body. WHAT?? ha ha I'm given a slip with an address and told I need to bury Jesus there.

Of course I enlist the help of my sister. Donielle is gaggy and bitching, but being a total sport and we get outside, and have no clue where the place is. My car isn't reliable, so we ask my mom to drive and she gets defensive and says, "Ummm, I got a fucking pound of cocaine in my car. I can't get caught with coke AND Jesus' dead body!"

Donielle and I look at each other in disbelief. "YOU'RE DRIVING!" We get Jesus loaded up, and find out the building is only 2 blocks away. My mom is pissed that she took a risk for only two blocks and kicks us out. Jesus is thrown to the curb!

We realize we have to bury him on the rooftop, just one problem. When we get inside, they're working on the elevators. JUST OUR LUCK. Now we have to carry Jesus up 18 flights of stairs. I was in the lead and Donielle took up the tail. Right when we're almost at the rooftop, we run into two of my gay friends who just became Daddy's. They stop us in the hall and are showing me their new baby girl. I get distracted and Donielle is left with Jesus. She goes up top and buries him. It kind of gets fuzzy from there... but hell... I don't know if I could take anymore!

State of the Soul

My friend Zack asked me tonight what was my "state of soul". I might be accused of being "deep" but I had to reply with, "What do you mean?"

I had just finished telling him about my latest state of affairs and he helped put things into perspective a bit. He said, "Perfect love casts out all fear." Now I've heard this quoted before usually with religious reference talking about unconditional love from God. But, tonight I thought, how about our acceptance of each other? Maybe that's why he asked about my state of soul. How comfortable am I with everything that's gone down in the last three weeks? I've been having a very hard time without Marcus. I love him and miss him dearly. But maybe that love needs to start shedding some fears, ya think?

When is love conditional and when is it unconditional? When it casts out all fear?

Last night I broke down uncontrollably. In hindsight it was embarrassing, but at the time I was simply scared and lonely. I called Marcus in a moment of weakness and quickly realized my mistake. After few words, I hung up feeling even worse and knew I needed to "get it together".

The truth is I do love Marcus... unconditionally.

When I am struggling, I need to remind myself of times like now when I am clear minded.

Since the very beginning I've never wanted to change a thing about him. He's not perfect, but he sure as hell is perfect to me. I've only wanted the best for him and nothing has changed. I went back and read the "testimony" I left him four days after we split up.

"Marcus – There’s absolutely nothing I can say or write that will come close to expressing how deeply I care for you and how grateful I am for the last four years – the best four years of my life thus far. You’ve inspired me beyond imagination and helped me learn that it takes no time to fall in love, but it takes years to truly know what love is. --- You’re my best friend, and always will be. I know you know this! But you also need to know that I’ll be your other brother – another love to come and comfort you - and I’ll keep reminding you (if it’s the only thing I ever do) that I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

More than anything, I want to see you succeed gloriously in this world. Make your mark, take a bite out of it, shake it, take control and you will inevitably wind up finding for yourself all the strengths you have inside of you. --- As our song says: “I will be the answer, at the end of the line. I will be there for you, while you take the time. In the burning of uncertainty, I will be your solid ground… Cause I can only tell you what I know, that I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE. When the stars have all gone out, you’ll still be burning so bright.”

I find it ironic that only four days after ending the most amazing relationship in my life, I was able to think that soundly. I guess my feelings are going to fluctuate - but I have a lot to be thankful for and I'm going to focus my attention there as best I can.

Marcus - If you ever end up reading this, I hope it doesn't bother you that it's on my blog for family or friends to read. If it bothers you, I'll promptly remove it. It's become a bit therapeutic for me and I don't fear being a bit open about it.

Marcus, you deserve all the love and praise my soul inevitably pours out. I can't thank you enough for loving me as purely as you do and helping me see that it's equally as safe for me to love you without limitation. If I've caused you to worry - don't. I'm very strong and I'm only growing stronger. Before you I had so much clouding my mind. But, the uncertainty and "ghosts" are gone now. You've instilled a bright hope in me - a new dream of becoming more at peace with myself and content with my own soul. I will not let this hope be distorted by internal needs or external influences. I will remind myself that this hope is a gift from YOU. One that I will cherish for eternity.

So the next time when someone asks, what is my state of soul? I have an answer.

"Finding some peace."

Mexico - Villa Cortez

Well it was definitely nice to get away for a while in Mexico. I went to Puerto Penasco, which is about 2 hours south of Phoenix, AZ. So the flight was cheap ($91 round trip) and it was an easy car drive.

This area of Mexico has only been "touched" by Americans really over the last two years and WOW, what a difference. It's BOOMING there. The purpose of this three day trip was to investigate a development that my development sales and marketing team - Fuse - is considering selling. The project is called Villa Cortez and there will be more about it on my real estate blog soon.

Here are some pictures from the trip.

Soon as we got off the plane we were STARVING... went to an authentic Mexican Restaurante!

After lunch we took a boat out along miles of the coast to see all the new development.
This town used to be a huge shrimp town, but since the tourism they've paid most the shrimp farmers to dock their boats permanently. I thought it was a great shot.

This was the casa we stayed in. Huge 4 bedroom right on the beach in Playa la Jolla.

Me, the Developer, Petur & Ryan
(Why do I always gotta be the youngest?)

The beach and water was so incredible it looked like a Photoshop illustration. So I took a picture myself to see how magnificent it really was.

Just love everybody

This great excerpt from a workshop of Abraham in Houston came across my desk today. I believe (as many of you know) greatly in the Law of Attraction.

"Just love everybody that interacts with you no matter how personally, or how peripherally, involved with you they are. The efficiency of the people who deal with you... everything is orchestrated by the manager called Law of Attraction. And your vibration is setting all of it into motion. Everything affecting you is a reflection of the vibration that you are emitting. Spend more time focused upon your dream than upon the reality. The reality gives birth to the dream -- but the dream is where you are wanting to put your attention."

So I'm gonna keep on dreaming...

Clinton 2008!

Go Hillary!