Putting things into perspective!

My friend Chris sent this to me and I was quite impressed with it. This is such a good illustration of the universe. I've never quite seen it put this way. It's exciting to imagine all the possibilities from this perspective, isn't it?

Antares (the last photo you'll see in this group) is the 15th brightest star in the sky. It is more than 1000 light years away.

Face the Facts - No thanks!

Many around you want to point out "reality" to you. They say, "Face the facts. Look at what-is." And we say to you, if you are able to see only what-is—then, by Law of Attraction, you will create only more of what-is... You must be able to put your thoughts beyond what-is in order to attract something different or something more.

Excerpted from a workshop in “The Law of Attraction, The Basics of the Teachings of Abraham” on Saturday, July 1st, 2006

Jake Gyllenhaal Dreamgirls

Wow - Who knew Jake could sing like that? LOL

Thought of the Day

I think I'm going to occasionally put some of my thoughts on my blog. Every morning I get an email from Abraham-Hicks and I wake up and grab my cell phone to check the email. It's always a thought that makes me think. It usually starts my day off helping me be more appreciative or simply more aware and better empowered to create the day ahead of me.

So, I think I'll share some of these thoughts on here. At least the ones that stand out to me.

Today's quote was from a workshop they did back in 2003, and it has to do with our physical health. If you've seen the movie "The Secret", you've been introduced to the thought of mind over matter... or mind over health. It's probably one of the hardest concepts for me to "buy into" but I know it's true. It's all about the Law of Attraction. That which we focus on, think on, or expect is what will be delivered to us.

"The majority have been programmed from their past experience to expect physical decline. And while it is something they don't want, they are programmed to expect it. And so, they're going to get what they expect. It's not that what they expect is the reality that everyone lives, but that everyone lives the reality of what they expect."

Gay Pimp

Just in case you forgot about this video...

Telluride votes to impeach Bush, Cheney

Telluride is awesome, I love that they did this!

By The Associated Press
Article Last Updated: 07/25/2007 12:39:25 PM MDT

Telluride — Telluride Town Council members have voted 6-1 to call for the impeachment of President Bush and Vice President Cheney.

If the measure survives a second reading Aug. 7, it would become the town's official position.

Community leaders said they had endured criticism from near and far following last week's vote, but at least one council member said that was because people do not understand the town's home-rule municipality.

Andrea Benda said the town has two choices whenever citizens initiate an ordinance: adopt it, or put it on the ballot.

With liberal voters outnumbering conservatives 5-to-1 in Telluride, Benda said she did not think it was necessary for the impeachment issue to become part of local campaigning this fall.

Telluride Tourism Board executive Scott McQuade said the town was no stranger to controversy, and he didn't see the matter becoming a major issue.

McQuade said he understood that some people would not agree with the measure, but said people who don't approve of Telluride the way it is might want to stay away so they don't end up being disappointed.

Betty goes to Jehovah's Witnesses and MCC

Okay, this video goes out to all my ex-Jehovah's Witness friends and fellow Mo's! I donno who this Betty Butterfield is, but she needs to lay off the dope. Even as messed up as she is, she's right about the Jehovah's Witnesses and the gay boys at the MCC. LOL I love it.

Uplifting others

You cannot look at that which you do not want and not join and perpetuate that vibration. Take your attention from that which is not in harmony with who you are, and in taking your attention from it, your "now vibration" will adjust to who you really are, and then you can uplift others.

Apologize - One Republic Video

Just a song I've had on my profile for a while now, and found the video... at least the song is good, cause the video is pretty lame.

Paris in Prison

Gotta love Paris!

Yeah baby!! Google Checkout Rocks!!

Okay, so you have to 'check out' Google Checkout. You can get to it anytime by typing www.google.com/checkout. The logo looks like this:


My exceptionally nice Shure E3c Sound Isolating Earphones were stolen at the gym two weeks ago, and I haven't been able to get in a good workout since. I know that sounds lame, but music is very key to me getting in a good workout or even keep me motivated to run longer, bike stronger, etc... Shitty headphone (and most of them are) just don't do it for me. Especially after having Shure headphone! In my opinion, no one makes better in-ear phone than Shure... not even Bose!

But I decided to check out the prices and the E3c is still going for $199.00 as it was year and half ago when I bought them. But since then they've improved on it twice. I cannot afford the E5c but I just want more extended bass, so I am interested in the E4c Earphones.

E4c Sound Isolating Earphones

Anyway, I went to the Apple store.. E4c's are $350... on Shure's website, $319.00... (never trust eBay, been fucked over twice on that site) but how wonderful is Google Checkout... it checks out all the online vendors of the product and you can find the most affordable on your own. I got these headphones for $169 + $22 in shipping! HELL YEAH!!

LOVE GOOGLE!!

A therapeutic reply

Got a mesage from a new friend - my reply became therapeutic!

my friends message:

"Hey bud,

So, you've been all over my mind tonight. Maybe I'm way off... but I've always thought the guy that goes out on a limb is way cooler than the one that stays quietly inside his box...

So here goes... I think I just kinda put all the pieces together. The song on your profile, the fact that you talk about Marcus ALL the time, the fact that 6 months or a year or whatever it is later meeting for a drink is still awkward and emotional.

Here's my two cents. I know you really loved him... but based on what you said you definitely dumped this guy for all the right reasons. Here's my thing though... you've already been hurt once (or twice or ten times whatever the case is)... really badly... you probably still are... so what's being hurt again? Honestly if your heart wants the guy back and your heads telling you no... I would tell you to go for it because maybe it works out. AND if it doesn't, are you really gonna be hurt much worse than you already are?? If anything I think it will be easier to break up with him after this break you guys took.

On the other hand, if you're really confident in your decision and you're just missing this guy cuz you miss having someone there... I would tell you to do the exact opposite. He's not worth fretting about... lol so why give him power over you by missing him??

I don't know if any of this made sense. Just wanted you to hear... lol I guess from someone that barely knows you... that you're an AWESOME guy (definately one of the coolest ones I've ever met) and fretting about Marcus either way is really a waste of your time because you're better than that....

Have a good night buddy!"

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My reply:

Thank god you're not one that stays quietly inside your box!

Thanks for the email. Very kind of you. I have to say I FUCKING HATE CONNEXION more than anything right now. I spent about 30 minutes replying to you, and hit send and the mother fucking system said there was a send error. When I hit back to try again, it had lost my entire message to you. I am so sick of that site! ANYWAY...

I guess I get the wonderful privilege of bleeding my heart out again! LOL Just kidding! Actually it was partially therapeutic writing back to you. The more I think through everything the better. In fact, I'm going to see my therapist on Monday for the first time in many months. I just feel I need to spend some time talking though everything that's happened over the last five months.

So to reply and answer (or explain) a bit of my situation, there's a few things you should know.

First off, I didn't "dump" Marcus. In fact, if anyone was "dumped" it was me. LOL But that's not the way it happened. He knew it didn't feel right anymore and there were some other things acting as the catalyst for this decision, but in the end we both agreed and mutually chose to end the relationship. We felt as if we held on much longer just because we loved each other, that eventually we'd resent each other for keeping one another from the other ambitions and passions we wished to pursue. He is 24 now and was going to Oxford and then possible the east coast for grad school and I was more stationary here in Denver. (However, ironic... that now that I'm single, I'm actually considering moving again. ha ha)

So when Marcus got back in town Friday and called me to grab a coffee or whatever, it was nice to hear from him and a shock cause I didn't know exactly which day he was coming back. But of course I went and met him and we grabbed a drink. I felt as thought I was a bit more reserved than usual. I'm not sure why, or how to explain it, but I'm sure it was just some unnecessary defense mechanism. Soon as I saw him, it was like seeing my brother or sister. It was like seeing someone that will always make me happy.

So yeah, I was a bit awkward as I mentioned, but he wasn't doing anything to make me feel this way. And even thought I love him very much, I don't think we'd be good for each other (dating-wise) right now or in the near future. So it's not like I long to have him back as a boyfriend, I'm just glad to have him back. He's my best friend, and I missed him dearly while he was in England.

The only thing that still has me messed up in the head is the fact that the reason we split up is in direct conflict with his (rather immediate) action of finding a new boyfriend soon as he got to England. I'll admit, I never got jealous or upset, but I'm still super confused. But when I logically look at the situation, I remind myself that it doesn't involve me anymore and that I should just be happy for him, if he's happy. Why we split up is based almost solely on the fact that Marcus was not able to grow as a person because he became so reliant on me. He would put me in a more dominate/decisive position in the relationship, having me make a lot of the decisions. He was comfortable... too comfortable! And in a sense, I was getting too comfortable too. I wasn't being ambitious about much, just stuck in a rut, and putting my relationship ahead of everything else.

Sure, there are/were probably many things we could do to work on not being comfortable and trying to be more independent in the relationship, but we had been trying for two plus years at that point. It was FAR from just throwing in the towel. We worked through everything.

Overall, Marcus was not comfortable in his own skin and needed some time with "just Marcus" to really get to know himself, and figure somethings out in his head. Completely understandable, right? So you can imagine my surprise when after only a few weeks of being in England he tells me about this boy he met named Harry, and now they're boyfriends. Not only that, but he's coming out to Denver at the end of August to visit. He's not sure why he's dating him, but he likes him. He knows this is not what he needs right now and he knows it goes against the main reason why WE split up, but he does so anyways. Sign of weakness, insecurity, dependency? Maybe. Probably. More than likely! However... it's now what makes him smile. It's now what makes Marcus happy, and truly what else is the purpose in life?

So as the "other brother" I promised Marcus I would be... I am glad for him. Marcus' experience in this physical life is going to be one of many surprises and MANY DRASTIC CHANGES. This I know, this he knows! I'm happy being there for him, supporting him and comforting him. I'm happy sharing any part of my experience with him as well.

I think far too many people have an overly complicated outlook on life and relationships, when in reality it's so simple and beautiful it humbles the most arrogant of us all. But most are arrogant (most religion is arrogant) and arrogance is ignorance; the antithesis of anything beautiful, in my opinion.

I'm beginning to ramble, but I guess in conclusion you can rest assured that I personally am very happy and enJOYing my experience over these last few months of being single. It's taken some getting used to, and there was an adjustment period, but it's great.

I feel we all free to choose to discover new avenues for our joy. In my joy I will grow; and in my growth I will add to the growth of All-That-Is (the Universe, God, each other). I will add to the growth of each one of us, to all of us... being happy and joyful contributes to the growth and prosperity of everyone. It's just one of my contributions! ;-) LOL

Planet Unicorn!

Planet Unicorn!! OH MY LORD... the stuff you find on YouTube!

Planet Unicorn Part 1 and 2



Just in case you haven't had enough... Part 3



Part 4 - Now come on, really!

Horses and Elephants and Kangaroos, oh my!

You are on a horse, galloping at a constant speed. On your right side is sharp drop off, and on your left side is an elephant traveling at the same speed as you. Directly in front of you is a kangaroo and your horse is unable to overtake it. Behind you is a lion running at the same speed as you and the kangaroo. What must you do to safely get out of this highly dangerous situation?




Get your drunk ass off the Merry-Go-Round!

Pharmacology

In Pharmacology, all drugs have two names, a trade name and generic name.
For example, the trade name of Tylenol also has a generic name of Acetaminophen. Aleve is also called Naproxen. Amoxil is also called Amoxicillin and Advil is also called Ibuprofen.

The FDA has been looking for a generic name for Viagra. After careful consideration by a team of government experts, it recently announced that it has settled on the generic name of Mycoxafloppin. Also considered were Mycoxafailin, Mydixadrupin, Mydixarizin, Dixafix, and of course, Ibepokin.

Pfizer Corp announced today that Viagra will soon be available in liquid form, and will be marketed by Pepsi Cola as a power beverage suitable for use as a mixer. It will now be possible for a man to literally pour himself a stiff one. Obviously we can no longer call this a soft drink, and it gives new meaning to the names of "cocktails", "highballs" and just a good old-fashioned "stiff drink". Pepsi will market the new concoction by the name of MOUNT&DO.

Thought for the Day: There is more money being spent on breast implants and Viagra today than on Alzheimer's research. This means that by 2040, there should be a large elderly population with perky boobs and huge erections and absolutely no recollection of what to do with them.

Al Hildreth

My grandfather just passed away last week. This was my father's father. I didn't know him very well. To be completely blunt about it I haven't known him for at least 13 years (when I was 18). After graduating HS it wasn't long before everyone found out about me being gay. I guess this grandfather of mine didn't care much for that. He never made contact wit him since. I went and visited him with my brother and sister once about a month ago. That was the first time I had seen him in many many years.

Apparently he lived a good life but a very unhealthy one, so at the age of 67 he passed and I think it was really hard on most of my family and of course... especially my father who was unable to be there for his funeral.

THE FUNERAL

The whole reason I wanted to write about this a little bit, was because I really thought PARTS of the funeral were uncomfortable to me and many others there (as I found out afterwards at the reception). Not out of disrespect at all - but it's ironic how religion plays a part in peoples lives... OR DOESN'T play a part, until someone gets married or dies. Everywhere else in between "God" exists sporadically. They really should have left all religion, god, and related BS aside in my opinion. My G'pa wasn't a religious person at all from what I knew. But I guess... the funeral is more for those left behind than s/he that just passed.

The only two parts of the service I enjoyed was my Aunt Kim's letter about my G'pa (her father), and a short slide show with pictures of him and his life. That was nice!

IF IT'S ME - LET IT BE KNOWN!

All that aside... I haven't written any direction as to my will or living-will for that matter. But here's my wishes...

If I'm a veggie for any length of time at all really...for all things holy, let me go! Pull that plug baby and send me on my way. This physical existence is not one that I feel is ever worth the pain it would cause others to endure while hoping that I'm going to pull out of it. NOR is it worth the pain I would have to endure if I came back and was severely handicap (mental or physical). Not saying it wouldn't be a worthwhile experience, but honestly... I've had enough challenges in this life that I really don't care to add that extra level of "specialness". No thanks. Maybe if I choose to come back again.

In terms of my death... well I hope it's sudden #1... nothing enduringly painful I hope. But if it is sudden all my friends and family should know without a doubt that I've appreciated them every step of the way. I'll try to show that to you all - I'll try not to be too self-absorbed... HA HA I know I choose to do a lot of it alone sometimes, but I guess that's all part of my experience. It's nothing personal against you, but entirely personal for me.

Yet, when I leave this physical existence (die, croak, pass on, kick it, etc... I like to make light of it cause I don't think very morbid of death) I hope my family and friends do nothing but celebrate the life I lived. I don't want a single mention of the "God" they follow, or the Bible, or anything of a religious relation. I don't even want my funeral to be at a parlor that owns a cross or tailors to most Christians, etc.. it just wouldn't be me!

I would want it in the nature somehow... I'd want it short and sweet, but also very spiritual. I'd want people to know what I believe about life, our purpose, their purpose and very importantly how connected all of us are physical and non-physical. We're all a part of that which we call God, we're all God. So not only should we follow the "golden rule" of treating others as we wish to be treated... but really the opposite. We should treat ourselves as we wish to treat others. If we start by truly loving every part of ourselves we will have so much more to offer everyone else.

Okay, enough of that for now... there just better be some good words said about me and then some good wine and a kegger! LOL Honestly, if everyone is able to appreciate me and my life, then they can appreciate each other and leave aside their differences. They can all show each other that they are all the same and all equally as much a part of me, and god.

Opera Singer

Well gosh... I didn't mean for my blog to become a collage of videos, but I've been very busy with work, training, and even handling a project in Mexico right now.

It's 10:00pm at night and I've come into my office to send a "Goodbye" message to my two managing brokers Justin & Clara. I've decided to switch brokerages for many reasons (too many to discuss), but overall the change to Cherry Creek GMAC Real Estate will be a good one! I'm off to Mexico at 5:00am in the morning, my flight is out of DIA at 7:00am. Why do I always book such early flights? Will I ever learn my lesson?

Anyway, I'm going down to show my friend/client Debbie the project I've been working on, Villa Cortez. Should be more fun and play than work, but I'll be writing it off! :-)

Anyway, I got into the office tonight and got distracted by an email from my friend Lynn. She sent me this video of a man that dreams to be an Opera Singer and tries out on some TV Show Contest. I was bawling!!

Swear Jar

Memorial Day on the Ranch!

Had a blast with my friend Jim (Jimmy Bubba) at his parents ranch in Nebraska last weekend. They have about 7,000 acres and more cattle than I've ever seen. I couldn't imagine a 4-day weekend on a ranch to be so much fun, but it was a blast. We hung out and learned about ranching, and hiked (yes, they have big hills), rode the horses and more.

Here's some pictures from the gang.

Coming Out Insurance